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Love Thursday: February 21st, 2008

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On Sunday night, our family had a little scare:  Alex wasn't herself all day, sort of just tired and lethargic.  At the end of the day, we finally decided to call her pediatrician on call -- and soon after, found ourselves in the emergency room, with Alex on a nebulizer.  Turns out she was having her first asthma attack, resulting from pneumonia we didn't know she had.

I remember a moment in the emergency room, watching Alex's limp body finally sleeping, at about 1 a.m.  And I remember irrationally thinking:  "I shouldn't have become a mother.  I can't take this.  I can't watch this.  I'm not strong enough."  Of course, immediately afterwards,  I remember saying to myself, "Don't be an ass, Karen.  She's going to be fine.  What's the matter with you?  In the grand scheme of things, this is nothing.  And if this was something truly life-threatening, of course you'd be strong enough.  You'd take a deep breath, and you'd deal.  BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT MOTHERS DO."

Of course, everything is fine now, and all of us are breathing easier.  And I think back to that night, I'm sort of shocked by the intense fear I was experiencing, motivated by intense love.  Who would've thought five years ago I was going to be a mom, let alone love this little kid with the ferocity that I do?  And boy, how I do.

Happy Love Thursday, everyone.  Please leave your links of love in the comments below -- and be sure to check out the photos left in the Shutter Sisters Flickr Pool by keeper of the chocolates and tonyapoole for inspiration.

And may be you bowled over by the love you feel today. 

Posted on Thursday, February 21, 2008 by Registered CommenterKaren Walrond in , | Comments76 Comments | References1 Reference

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    So tonight, I hold my little boy and my husband a little closer, thankful for every minute together that God graces us with. Hold your family close. Hug your children a little tighter tonight.

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I'm so sorry to hear of your ordeal Karen but glad Alex is out of the woods now. Whew. And you are right when you said "that's just what mothers do". Our strength knows no bounds.
My post is up with my Love Thursday photo at Mother May I-
http://maypapers.blogspot.com/2008/02/one-tween-for-two-themes.html
February 21, 2008 | Registered CommenterTracey Clark
Well, it's only midnight where I am, and though it seems early to me, I just posted my own Love Thursday. I too have written thoughts on moms. While you write about you being a mom, I write about my own mom. And, may I say that as a daughter? I think Alex is lucky to have a mom like you, Karen.

http://cassafrass.wordpress.com/2008/02/21/love-thursday-february-21/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterCassie
My mother told me once that strength is not being just fine in a tough situation. It's being fine when you need to be, and usually then going home and crying yourself to sleep. I'm glad that you were able to be strong when you needed to be, and that Alex is getting better.

My love this week is the simple quiet moments I spend with my husband - he's often my strength.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/stacelet/2270061853/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered Commenterstacelet
You are beyond capable to be the Mom that Alex needs. That is why she belongs to you. You are more Mommy than she could ever require.

Here is a capture of my youngest to the other day. They were watching a movie and I caught them holding hands.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/ourcrazylife/2275882887/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterAngella
I haven't posted a photo yet, but wanted to send you a cyber hug. I've resuscitated a child several times...life is so fragile on many points. I hope Alex is feeling much better and that mom has recovered.
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered Commentermelody
http://nikkipolani.wordpress.com/2008/02/20/love-thursday-rain/

I'm so glad little precious Alex is okay.
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered Commenternikkipolani
i'm glad that your little one is doing better. that sounds very scary. ya know, i cant' seem to get over the fact that everytime i stop in here, i am reading posts by women who are experiencing the same intensity as i am. my son is having a very emotional time right now, and the world feels so big, and i feel so little, and i had just confided in a friend yesterday that "i'm not cut out for this, for mothering this sensitive creature that came to me. to give him a better go at it than i had." no one can ever tell you how hard it is, this intensity that fills us every single day. it's beautiful and overwhelming.

here's a shadow of love for love thursday, from a quiet morning
http://www.flickr.com/photos/camerashymomma/2274863981/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered Commentercamerashymomma
Wow, so glad that story has a happy ending.

My Love Thursday is a fun one, keeping it light today. :)

http://tinyurl.com/3xgdde
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterTo Think is to Create
Your post brought tears to my eyes as I remember the times I have been there...in times of uncertainty and denying my strength as a mother - as I am sure most moms can relate to. I'm happy that your little one is okay. I was inspired & decided to post my own Love Thursday post -

http://www.iknowamomblog.com/2008/02/wow.html
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterWhitney Hannah Hill
How scary! So glad to hear Alex is fine and that you have all come away from the ordeal stronger and even more "in love."

I'm nurturing my travel lovebug this week:

http://bleedingespresso.com/2008/02/love-thursday-nurturing-my-travel-lovebug.html
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered Commenterbleeding espresso
I'm glad she is ok. That is so scary. We were just in the emergency room a few weeks ago. My daughter fell head first onto our ceramic tile. Parenting is not for the weak....or perhaps parenting makes you grow stronger.

My submission this week is not perfect, but there is so much I love about it.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/muckyyuck/2281518426/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered Commentermel from freak parade
Love - it can give us the strength to do things we never dreamed possible.

My first link:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/fridaworld/2267457545/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterFrida
So glad Alex is on the mend--lots of hugs to y'all!

Beautiful,glorious picture!

My first Love Thursday post today goes hand-in-hand with the recent post about pictures of hubands...

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February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterDanaB
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterDanaB
Love is forceful and brutal, yet oh so delicate and sweet and nearly always all consuming. The object of my motherly love also loves our dog and the feeling is reciprocated. http://www.flickr.com/photos/jaycee/2235851150/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered Commenterjen
i'm glad alex is ok...

here's for my love thursday:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/mayaeh/2271635889/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered Commentermaya
I think a good love lets us all breathe easier. Here's my photo this week.

http://bipolarlawyercook.wordpress.com/2008/02/21/love-thursday/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterBipolarlawyercook
Are there any parents/caregivers who don't experience doubt? Well, I haven't met any...As a newly appointed guardian of a toddler, there have been many times of doubt for me...But, oh, they fade fast when experiencing the world through his bright eyes!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/23630286@N05/2280978699/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterKathleen
Oh that is so hard. My little one was sick this week too, but at least I got a good napping photo out of all the puking...

http://lakelinesthoughts.com/?p=586
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterLeah
Believe me, I've been there. When my now 3.5 year old daughter was only 6 months old, we were in the hospital for 5 days with what they thought was meningitis. I remember looking at this baby that I hardly knew and thinking how lost I would be without her. I was so relieved when we found out it was a viral, not bacterial, infection and we were released to go home. Somehow we moms find inner strength and peace when it is most needed. I'm glad your little girl is going to be fine.
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterTracie
http://www.flickr.com/photos/lysrian/2251234900/

Sometimes it's the simple things like a moment with a favorite pet.

February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterLys
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterLauren C.
Here's hoping this Love Thursday is extra special for me and my husband:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/liza-bean/2279413647/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered Commenterliza
My parents have seen me run through glass doors (5 YO, 35 stitches), crash bikes (12 YO, front wheel fell off, concussion), and go through a leukemia scare (18 YO, just a virus).

These events make us strong. Be strong, mamacita.

Love Thursday:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/strawberrygoldie/2281041865/
February 21, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterHeather

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